BE STILL

Lately my world just crumbles down on me. Failures after failures. Pain after pains literally and figuratively. My health has failed me again. Tests after tests, medications after medications that I had to undertake just to at least lessen the streak of pains. But it was not enough coz everyday I became anxious and I am hating the thought of being sick.

I dont know and I'm uncertain of why I felt anxious everyday and how depression sets in. Imagine this free-spirited woman afraid of going out to malls, watching movie alone, chillin' in a cafe or coffee shop, dining in my favorite place. I just wanted to stay at home and in my room. I cant go to work without sleeping every minute coz I am always tired. Alas! I had to ask help from my family to get me out of this place coz i can no longer breathe. I am helpless for the first time. I am not the type of person who ask for help but this time, I don't even trust myself and even minute decisions anymore. I need to go far to see me, coz I dont know myself anymore. I am a stranger in my own damn world.

Darkness has engulfed my whole being. I can no longer see even the slightest iota of hope of which I bear for the last 37 years of my existence. It's like I dont own my life anymore, I can't hold the things I love to do, it is slipping away from me. And yes, I am afraid of not being the same person anymore. 

And there I had to get away from the world I used to lived in for fifteen years. Away from the world I created in my mind where I can bloom and be at peace. But now, I don't fit in anymore. All the while I was the person who lives in my comfort zone, not realizing that I don't belong maybe not ever. 

I realized that I had too many cliche relationships and that I have become selfish with work and not enough time to be with the people who loves me, and that's my family. Now, seeing myself afar from my comfort zone has made me see that there is another world for me aside from being here. A place where you can't be stressed or depressed. In a place where you are surrounded with the undying love of family. For the many adventures I had, I left a big portion of it outside my home. And now it is time for me to be with them, enough of cliche relationships and stuff. I just wanted to be HOME again.

This journey of mine triggered so many feelings of remorse and rejections, of physical and mental anguish that had been kept lock for years but I had no chance of letting it go because unknowingly I kept it deep and away from everyone including me. It is indeed a truism that STILL WATER RUNS DEEP, and there is no way out but for me to again feel what had been locked to slowly pour down and eventually flow away where I can't see it. I have come to terms that my health is far more important than any riches in the universe. But all I can do is to accept that I can't go back to the way things are, but Be Still.

I am reminded of a quote I came across over the internet which says:

Failures plants the seed for great successes to come.

Piay Quotable Quotes

#diaryofawhimpylawyer

A happy home is where love and respect is lived and observed

Finished the Kdrama Romance is a Bonus Book. Loved it! its like looking back of every pages of book ive written my whole life. & the things to b rewritten, edited & sometimes remained to be hidden n every letters, words, phrases, sentences and paragraphs waiting to be unconvered.
19 mar 19

You had me. But you took what was left and broke it again.
06/25/18

Road to discovery is not a road in itself. It might be an ocean full of infinite possibilities. It might be the silence who will speak beyond compare. It might be that same moment you are constantly with. It might be the person that you are who will bloom like flowers of May.
04/27/18

Life offers infinite possibilities of both good an evil. You have to choose carefully coz sometimes those seen beautifully may not be good after all. Likewise those packed with molten rocks may offer good surprise for us.
12/06/16


Tell me something I dont know. Amuse me with stories I barely read. Tickle my imagination til my mind bleed. For when you stop being creative and magnanimous that your presence is just like "Flash"- you're a blur!
11/06/16

When your mind is at peace, one can never go wrong. When you are secured, you will not ask things beyond your control. And when you are given the chance to explore, make sure you make the best out of it.
11/05/16


There is something mysterious in every thing we are. We only need to capture the moment to ensure that we have lived it just the way we wanted to.
03/14/17

Don't put limits to the things you want to achieve coz it will definitely slow you down. Never let other people define your journey by pulling you down slowly. Instead lift your chin up with just the right angle, walk briskly and...... pose like this, just like this.
04/22/17

You dont need to flaunt your body but you can run the world with your charm!
06/11/17

Ive seen things that you haven't. Ive been to places where only few can do. Ive travelled afar to see people and homes ravished with conflict. Ive conquered life at its finest and worst. Ive journeyed well and lived life more than enough to say ive done my part. But wait, ive loads of energy to give even when others are hopeless. So hell yeah! Bring it on life coz i will never get tired of loving and living every minute' of it.
07/01/17

There are things that are meant to stay just for a little while. Thank you for giving me so much comfort and headache-free for almost three years. Our relationship is one of the best I have ever had so far. But then again, there is no forever and we need to separate so we will have time to breathe.
12/03/17

Sometimes there are things that only a leap of fate can understand. No ifs no buts, we might stumble along the way but there are reasons that no one can question not even yourself.
01/04/18

Like a blur we pass in this world once so live your life fully like it's your last. Forgive even if the other person does not ask your forgiveness. One mistake doesn't define your personhood instead it defines how you appreciate relationship and your gratefulness towards life in general.
01/04/18

And I tell you, 'ur hardwork and patience will get u to where you love to be. But ur faith will lead u to the things meant for u'...
01/10/18

Gimme a good reason not to love you, ur one heck of a thing I kept asking for more. Beyond pain and nervewrecking drills, i kept rushing just to get a taste of you. Its a good addiction and I intend to keep you till forever and beyond. (Muaythai)
10/13/2017

The best part of our lives is spending our best days with someone you grew up with and it had to be your brother.
06/17/2016

Take a ride and enjoy the journey may it be smooth or bumpy. Give and share a litte or may be all of yours so you won't regret the things you did not do.
06/04/16

Your journey had been one heck of a rollercoaster ride but you did not bother a wink. Instead you just stare at it and continue to make it more lighter and brighter than it was. You told yourself that at the end of the road something uniquely crafted awaits you. And that all you can do is embrace the life that astonishes you even until now.
05/27/2016

Think nothing but you.
Think nothing just go;
Think nothing but peace.
Think nothing just live; Think nothing but the journey. Think nothing just escape;
Think nothing but today. Think nothing just Love.
06/26/2016

Life may seem so hard up on you but you gotta be like this steadfast wall. Hang in there coz the best things in life will surprise you in ways you cant imagine.
10/29/2016

Coz u needed to outrun yourself and no one else. You outgrew and outlast your past coz u are made for a thing that will last.
06/16/2016

If by chance you come and meet me at the crossroad, dont forget to nod and say hi!
03/05/2016

The journey we take begins in every little step with all the barricades and negativity trying to take us out of our goals. But that cannot outgrow the positivism we have and the heart we pour out to every act we do.
I have journeyed this far and will give my heart to every little thing i do!!!
12/13/2015

Contrast.. #steady #moving
there are a lot of significant changes in our lives at times all it takes is how we appreciate its beauty. either we move forward to take a leap and change or we wait for something to happen.
06/29/2015

Happiness is defined by how well u lived ur life. It is never defined by how other people see you. I am who am!
05/31/2015

When we think that we have the worst hurt and pain in the whole universe, I am always reminded of that greatest Pain He endures for us to be save!!! and that pain is love for humanity. I will always be a living reminder of His Love!

02/19/2015

SALAMAT

To my parents who never cease to protect me from everything, I may not be the perfect daughter you could ever have but you will have me for the rest and eternity. I am more than thankful coz i always have your love and support. I wouldnt exchange you for the world and even beyond what my life can offer. You are heaven sent to me.

To my sisters and brothers, who i grew up with through thick and thin, my childhood wouldnt be the most memorable one if it wasnt spend with you. I have been blessed with a wonderful childhood coz i get to spend it with you. We may be of different time zones you will always have my back  as you do to me. Thank you coz you made me the happiest person because of that.

To my cousins, who most of the time are not just my playmates but a counselor at times. You do not only show me fun but more importantly you taught me how to share my life even more.

To my aunts and uncles, thank you coz you always showed me that you are my 2nd parents whenever we are lefr under your care. Thank you coz you always let me feel Im your daughter in everyway you can.

To my friends (LG, Vizier Versa, Mangkai, Dudes, PPG, teamlaagan)  and special friends you have been both my arrow and shield in the many battles I tried to won but some I failed. You are a constant reminder that my life is meant to be spent and shared to all even if they dont deserve me. Thank you coz you are always there to lift me up in every little way that you can.

To my Diocesan CM SCA family, you always give me home to turn to when Im one inch away of leaving my faith. Thank you coz you honed not only my faith but also inspired me to be better person for others.

To my USC-Choristers and Vox fambam, you taught me ways to cope up with college life, living with purpose and colors. You showed me what confidence is and love music even more. Thank you coz you have given me more than what i can give.

To my Balaod family, you have taught me to be grounded in doing all our work and advocacies. You are a family to me forever coz you honed me to be the person I am now. Thank you coz your innovativeness and magnanimity is engraved in my heart not to be contented with what is just okay but always strive for what is better or best.

To my CHR fam, you brought me the kind of environment where my life becomes meaningful. You do not only permit me to share my ability and skills to th maximum level but you made me believe again that there is still hope in every human being.

But most of all to the most loving and loyal lover of my soul. I will not be as loyal and loving as I am now if it hadnt for Him. Nothing compares to his unconditional love that He made me realize that He is more than enough to fill my life with Grace. 

BELOVED!

Life is too short to dwell on things that don't matter anymore;

Life is priceless so share it with the right people;

Life is valuable to leave it at the expense of a wrong person;

Life is and will always be indespensable to the one who holds it deeply;

Life is more than life itself just to prove your worth;

Life should be spent with people who cares for your well being;

Life is beautiful rather than non-appealing;

Life is you and only you can make it happen.

@diaryofawhimpylawyer

ADIOS!

@diaryofawhimpylawyer

Lately I learned that not all people will appreciate who and what you are;
Lately I learned that your goodness will never be good to people who dont love themselves;
Lately I learned that no one knows yourself but you;
Lately I learned that love is never enough to fill other peoples' emptiness;
Lately I learned that we have to let go of people to pave way for someone better if not best;
Lately I learned that nothing and no one can make you happy but yourself.

So cry till you eyes get dried up;
So bleed till nothing is left but none;
So shout till your voice cracks;
So get angry till your numb.

Bid goodbye to what was and had been;
Don't look back and never waste your heart to anyone but yours.

Art by: @uberlybia

Where do broken hearts go? In #TSARGAO

There are phases of our lives that weaken at the same time awaken us. No matter what we do we have to go through the phase of moving up or moving on. May it either from work or relationships. But what if its both? That does it! Someone may break us into pieces but the heck, our world does not start and end with just someone. It start within ourselves, of making peace with oneself and it start by giving yourself a break from all the non-existent, self -proclaimed fault-finder being. (Nuffsaid)

Fast forward, every little creature in this world deserves a whole lot of everything that life has to offer. And where do broken hearts go? There are a lot of places to go to it all depends on where your heart leads you to. But I particularly love to see this place again and enjoy the waves and scenery for the second time. But before you go to this tourist destination, make sure you booked everything starting from the accomodation and boat to take you there. Coz mind you this place has no off season to speak off. We are just so lucky we have a friend (a cousin of my friend) who was able to assist us and owns a travel agency in the place.

And our feet paved its way to the bus terminal and we were on board the bus from Cagayan de Oro City via Butuan City and Surigao City. We have to travel a day before our scheduled trip from Surigao City to Siargao. Travel from Cdo to Bxu will take us about 5-6 and half hours by bus and from Bxu to Surigao City is about 3 and half hours. Take note when you want to catch up with the 5am trip to Siargao you gotta be in Bxu before 1 am to catch up with the 2am trip. But if you have your own transportation just take your time and allot 2 and half hours instead. If you have enough time there's a locally known cafe in Bxu named 'Margies'- a must try are their Cookie Monster Cake and their infamous oatmeal and brownie thins (opens at 11am until 10pm as far as i can remember). But if you like a more cheaper yet delicious local food, you can drop by at Cabadbaran City Market ask for their 'puto maya paired with either pure sikwate or the Sari-Sari. However, if you want to enjoy Surigao City and enjoy food you can go to the Market, buy some fresh seafood and have it cooked in some of the restaurant just inside the market (better during lunch time).

Now let us get back to Siargao, remember I had to go back there coz i was not able to try hitting the waves from the surfing capital of the Philippines. From Surigao port you will have choices of boats or ships like Montenegro Shipping, Fortune Angel, Yuhan, Evaresto Precious and LQP. Fare ranges from php 150-280.  When your in Siargao, you should at least try surfing even if it takes all your strength to stand aboard to meet your ten (10) waves and the guide/surf board costs php500. But if you know how to catch your own waves its cheaper to rent.

Good thing is we were booked at General Luna just along the road near Cloud 9 where all means of transport are available. Name all the transport they have it, starting off from bikes, motorbikes, motorelas/tricyles, motorcycles with roofdeck, van and the likes. Take note, everything costs a bit but if you like to enjoy the place you should try the things you havent done for the first time. But of course riding a bike and motorbikes requires skills coz again, all means of transport is pretty speeding up the streets.

 From the port of Dapa to General Luna it will cost 200php when you ride a motorbike. Or if you have a travel agent you wouldn't sweat a bit coz everything is provided and they lived up to this phrase and i quote 'Surigao del Norte where Nature Nurtures Naturally'. Thanks to Vince Oraiz of EDRO travel and tours for giving us tips and ensuring that we have a place to stay even though we booked so late. EDRO (Exciting Destination for Recreation and Outstanding Services) ensures that we can get to Siargao to enjoy the stay.

In Siargao, General Luna is the place where you will experience nature with a bunch of all perks starting off from restaurants (all types of food), carenderia, resorts, coffee shops, bakeries, bars, place to hang out at night, videoke and of course the beach and sand is perfectly perfect. And if you like souvenirs they got it all for you.

But you can enjoy General Luna walking along the streets and look for private places to experience the beach and yes we were able to witness the 'bluemoon' sparkling along the shores of Siargao. It was a magnificent view when shared with friends who knows how to appreciate nature at its best.

One of the highlights of our trip is the Sugba Lagoon and Magpupungko. Try researching about the story of the Sugba Lagoon which is located in the Municipality of Del Carmen, coz literally someone just got  grilled in that Lagoon according to local legend. The trip lasted for 30-40 minutes. Before reaching Sugba lagoon, you will be able to pass through 4,000 hectares of Mangroves with species ranging from 44 out of the 54 species of mangroves in the Philippines. Amazing isn't it? Its one of the biggest Mangrove areas I have ever seen in my entire life. In the lagoon, you can do some water sports and dive from a 30 ft diving board. Or you can enjoy swimming at the lagoon instead.

Magpupungko on the other hand, is located at the Municipality of Pilar and one should note that the best experience in Magpupungko is during low tide. Therefore, the place is dependent on high tide or low tide. You will have a glimpse of the waves just across the naturally crafted sea pool all at the same time. If you are more of the extreme fun, you can try the rock jump in the pool coz i tried, but my confidence is just so low at this time of my life.

But one things for sure, fixing a broken heart also entails wonderful company of friends who knows you're whims and caprices. And more often than not made the journey to picking up the pieces lighter and easier. All buckled and backed up with nature and scenery that will take all your pains and letting the waves take it off from your body and never look back at it again. Thank you Siargao, you just made me smile again and thinking of coming back to hit the waves anytime soon. Surfing will surely fix this Island Girl from Bohol.



For contact and inquiries look for:
Mr. Vince Oraiz
EDRO Travel
#09054846646

What will you do when you can't do anything but wait! what will you do when can't do but listen. What will you do when you can't do but sit! What will you do when all you can do is to love~ ering....

BACKPACK, BACKPACK!

This may sound funny but yes, I am both inspired with Dora's ways of exploring life's ABC's and the challenging line of Philippine's most talk about movie "That Thing Called Tadhana" (dala ko ang buong buhay ko, kaya nagka-excess baggage" .However that is where you are wrong about the whole thing, its not about me traveling to find my tadhana but yes, I am traveling bringing along with me this backpack (full of things necessary for my travel). And again, it may sound absurd but yes, i should say I am bringing stuff though heavy yet necessary for future event.  It would be so unlike me bring small bags even when going to malls or even to parties and the like. So,how could I not carry heavy baggage when I am in fact bring necessities in life? Ironic? It definitely is.

Now let us see, what is inside this backpack,it surely depends on the purpose of the trip, but well oh well here are some things I could not live without;

1. medicine kit (for my endemic illness and upcoming ones)

2. make up kit (not that I use it all the time)

3. pencil case (with all the colored pens, flashdisk, chargers)

6. anything to nibble

7. planner

8. umbrella

9. and the like

10--- stuff for the trip and its more than 5 kilo (malong and magic carpet is a must)

Oh did I forget to mention I always have a big bag and more likely a backpack in weight  how much more if I decide to have a trip hahaha! So here's the thing, you do not have to worry about my backpack because I will not bother you with it instead you will benefit  from it. Never mind the heavy luggage what is important is that I create and enjoy life while i am journeying. I inviting you to join me in my journey where life's ABC's are at stake. Do not just be contented with what life has to offer instead offer your life to the world and make a difference, "Be a better backpack for the world".

MOON

SUMMER it is!

SUMMER it is!
As i write today's blog. This is quite different from my usual post coz i want to share the things that my eyes can see whenever my thoughts came drifting and be transported into another dimension in the so-called "photography".

Wickedly beautiful sunset at BantayanIslandPh.

light up my life so everyone can see the beauty that's hidden deep inside of me..

Let me guide you while I sail and illuminate my night and make it day! For I will join you soon enough before you even know it!

 Protect me from the heat of the sun and make me rest for a brief time.









Let me bed you and i will surround you with memories to keep until the end of time.

Still strong and standing even when storms collide!

                                                                                                                                        

Come buy me serenity and bliss for I am deeply in need of this!